psshhh

soo... my life is going kinda crazy right now... my heart keeps breaking and i cant figure out why. all i can do is list the things it COULD be and try to calm myself down from each as much as i can... only problem is i cant pin point my biggest problem. what are my problems right now?
well....

i cant stop thinking about joey
i need a job that i can have a reliable ride too or in walking distance
i cant stop thinking about my break up with my stupid ex and i cant help but wonder if i did something wrong..
my dad still wont talk to me
im constantly feeling unwanted and worthless
i still need to get my GED so i can actually live my life
we're so behind in rent that our landlord could kick us out at any moment
everybody's pressuring me to do everything at once
i practically live alone
im so insecure that i'm literally waiting for takoda to break up with me, even though he says he wont
my anxiety is getting worse and im just about to the point where im too scared to even get in a car
i've been feeling sick for the past few days
i've almost had another pregnancy scare even though we're using about 2 or 3 types of protection at a time (mirana, condom, and withdraw)
i'm almost out of black paint
my akatsuki rings STILL haven't arrived
i think my laptop has ANOTHER virus on it
i'm always tired
im always hungry
my voices are coming back
and to top it all off im afraid that my baby sister isnt gonna come out alive.......

good things?

takoda's sweet but not too sweet where you can tell hes trying too hard
joey's growing healthy and strong with Bridget
quans advancing in her life and im really happy for her
i got drunk for the first time on september 4th and it was fun af
i still have a roof over my head
im slowly quitting cigarettes due to lack of money
i see my grandpa tomorrow (technically today but whatever)
we were finally approved for food stamps
i've been obsessing over both naruto and harry potter lately
my inspiration has started coming back
i'm finally dating someone on my level of thinking for a change
i can listen to whatever i want to again
i have my little baby mia <3

SOO yeah... my life is a little jumbled as of now... but ya know.. whatever...